Easy to Hit

I recently started going back through my old CD collection and found Ben Folds Five. I miss that band. Well, one of their songs really hit a chord with me.

Battle of Who Could Care Less.

Do you not hear me anymore
I know it’s not your thing to care
I know it’s cool to be so bored
I sucks me in
when you’re aloof
It sucks me in, it sucks it works
I guess it’s cool to be alone
Will you never rest
Fighting the battle of who could care less
Everyday you wake up late
Sometimes I wish I was
that way
And you think Rockford Files is cool
But there are some things
that you would change
if it were up to you
So think about your masterpiece
Watch the Rockford Files
And call to see if Paul can score some weed.
Will you never rest
Fighting the battle of who could care less
Unearned unhappiness
That’s all right I guess…
I’ve go this great idea
Why don’t we pitch it to the Franklin Fucking Mint
Fine pewter portraits of
general apathy and major boredom singing…
Whatever and ever Amen
Oh well maybe not try again
This should cheer you up for sure
See I’ve got your old I.D.
And you’re all dressed up like the Cure
Will you never rest
fighting the battle
of who could care less
unearned unhappiness
You’re my hero I confess

I do this. All the time. I need to slow the hell down and not care so much about useless shit. Blarg.

I think we are fucked as a country. I even voted for Obama; Buyer’s remorse at its finest. I know that the other option wouldn’t have been much better but I don’t think we would be on our way to a socialist state. More and more government means more people relying on the government. That is not what the forefathers had in mind. If you think so you are full of shit. The ideals that make our country great are being killed.

Everyone, look to D.C. to fix you. Don’t try to do it yourself. Don’t take responsibility for your shitty choices on loans and buying houses you shouldn’t. Yes, rely on Uncle Obama.

I wish I would just die of a heart attack now.

I am a loser. I have a dead end job. I’m close to 30 and live at home. I play video games a lot and overweight. I do have a girlfriend but who knows how long that is going to last. I have no college education and I don’t know if I want to get one. I see other people my age with good lives and wonder where I fucked up. Or rather, why am I such a fuck up?

Oddly, through all that self-pity there is a part of me that is happy.